A Journey into the Dark Abyss

feeling guilty and sad that i wasn't able to do something yesterday that i SHOULD HAVE DONE. i mean, i didn't know that i could have after the fact, but i should have. what happened to my kuya skills? grr.

oh, i was supposed to have jury duty today, but when i called last night, it said that i have to call back later today to find out my fate.

*sigh* wish i was living in sac...

so many thoughts running through my head that i wish they would slow down even a little bit for me to question them. time runs so fast.

i wish that i were more eloquent sometimes. i'm so "simple". i don't know how to be poetic. i'm like a lyric in an rj jimenez song - cute but not deep. i should work on that. read more maybe. or more so, in order to get deep, i have to get deep within me, where the indescribable words are. sometimes i feel like porky pig, when he tries to say one thing, but struggles, and just uses a more simple word to say. i question whether i can even be a successful writer because of this flaw. i'd love to be quoted someday. i wanna be deep... but at the same time, this "flaw" is one of the things that i hope can relate my writing to a wider audience. this thought was brought about by a posting of one of my lil sisters... she used "squallid"... wow. such a good word. especially in the context in which it was used.

todays lesson: get deep.