productive

so i'm moving towards becoming a writer. went to 2 barnes stores and started reading anything that had to do with writing. actually bought a book and even though it's a how to write a novel it still is relevant to what i want to do - write a dope ass play that will get produced and imma have my friends in it and they're gonna love them, the plays, as much as im gonna love seeing them perform them. earlier, i was an eating establishment and started doing some free writing by first jotting down all the ideas that i had for writing a play. i have 6 or 7 of them. only one new one. the others have been marinating in my noodle for about 6 months to a year, and according to one of the books, if an idea has stuck somewhere in my thoughts for sometime, then it's still worth being written about. oh another tip, if i really want to get these plays written, i'm not allowed to talk about them. as usual, i'll let it slip through my lips and will never find it's way onto a written page. boo. anyways, i'm pretty hyped right now and just wanted to get something written. had a fight with my sister... actually my sister had a fight with me. she's just trippin so imma just give her the space she needs. all good on my end :) she has my dad's high blood and just gets angry a lot. wish she didn't. i asked her one time why she has a bad temper and she says she doesn't know. my dad had a bad temper too. sometimes i really wonder why i don't get mad more often. i think the last time i really really got upset was when a friend... never mind. not worth getting all twisted about. life is too short and i know when to let things go. to not get too burdened with things or they'll just eat you alive and by the time you eventually let things go, you've wasted so much time and energy by not focusing on things that really really matter to you.

i was planning to go up to sac today to support, but my car is pretty much shot. maybe i'm just being ma-arts, but the last thing i want to is to get stuck on the freeway with a busted engine. been there, done that! but i'm hoping to get there in two weeks. gotta ask some people for help, and i hope they can. need to finish, more precisely, to start a script and the book that i just bought helped me so much just from the first chapter!

better get some sleep. hoping for some good dreams tonight. i need em... and if you're (no one in particular) reading this i hope that you have a good night too. sweet dreams and God bless. =)