learning

went to stories high last night and was pleasantly... well i won't say surprised, because i know how good everyone is, but i was taken aback by how tighter and tighter the show has gotten. i take that back cuz i do know that only going through a run is the only way for the cast and crew to get tighter! it was fun to see ALL of the pieces come together. i'm taking notes tonight and start on another play. well, try to start. it should be fun.

been thinking about someone today. i think i wrote about this before but for some odd reason, i've been thinking about her. i don't know why. we're just friends, but... and believe me there's no romantic inclinations there. none. but is that why i'm obessesing over her... because there i do think of her as more than such. preposterous! just sucks to think about someone too much. i think i did write about the unrequited friendship before. you know, when you think that someone is a close friend... but not getting the love in return. it's so stupid to feel like this! childish even. maybe, it's just plain sadness. sadness that for some reason that i'm so blind to see that we aren't as close as we used to be. or maybe even that was an illusion. *chuckle* why do i do this to MYSELF? i'm crazy, but at least i'm able to laugh at myself for it.

paalam.