an honest survey - update

What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?:
it's more for me to difficult for me to look someone in the eyes when THEY tell me how they feel, cuz I need to process their words and I would get distracted by looked at them.

Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?:
i have a defect where I can't get REALLY angry, however, I do get upset with people. and the last time that happened was when I saw whom I thought was a friend, exchanged pleasantries, but wala after that. URGH!

You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?:
my mom and tell her that i love her. if possible, i'd call one of my other friends to pass along other messages to my other friends cuz she's responsible like that.

You are at the doctor's office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?:
a month goes by so fast, but yeah, i'd tell the people that i'm closest to. I'd definitely put my life into gear to make sure that i leave something of me to be remembered. i'd plan my funeral. i don't think that i'd be afraid either, cuz of my faith.

You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.:
above all, i'd choose love. two things i do know about life, is that life moves really fast and that everything is temporary. given that, i can love someone or something with every ounce of my being and be happy. trust is important, but a friendship has to be fostered and nurtured for a long amount of time for trust to matter. i'd rather love and experience love right now and die, than not love because i'm waiting for trust to take hold. life's too short.

You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?:
i guess it's time to look for another job, cuz i LOVE DOGS and that's worth more than any job! if i did work for a cool boss than she or he would understand. if not, than i wouldn't want to work there!

Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?:
neither, but probably by the person I love the most, cuz once the trust has been fractured, then it'd take forever, if at all, to repair. i can fall in love with someone else, but it'd take a long time for me to trust that same person. again, life's too short.

Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?:
this just depends on so much. like how i feel about her and what is our history and deciding whether that friendship can still survive if we broke up. just keeping it real. but if it's worth it, then i'm all in.

Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?:
my dad - no. he was in pain the last hours of his life and i was there by his side. plus, he had cancer, and he got to spend time with friends and family before he passed for bj - definitely. in that hour, he could've maybe had time to say goodbye... crappy question.

Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?:
no. i disappear from people's live's too much. but, leaving nothing to chance and being inspired by a really good friend, i have tried to make sure that i don't lose connection with those that i'm closest to, that's why i'm in sac so much... life's too short.

Does love = sex?:
update: i was sick when i wrote this so i answered this wrong. here's my real answer.NO! i answered a survey asking if i was old fashioned, and this is one of the questions that would validate my answer. what's more sad is the fact that because of media, sex is just meant NOT to have any more meaning than that. it pisses me off when i see stuff like on mtv with people hooking up just for a mere booty call. blah. blah. blah. human nature. but shit, that's not human nature, that's animal nature. humans are meant to feel from the inside of their soul not just with body parts, di ba? so sex without the feeling of loving the other person is just an "act". yeah... i'm old fashioned that way.

Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?:
if i could afford to do it, maybe, but i gotta look out for me. honest.

When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? What did you have to tell the person?:
this is the most difficult thing for me to do. to be honest with someone, and maybe that's why i want to be a writer, is that's it's far easier to be honest in a play world than in reality. i'll plead the 5th.

What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?:
it'd be way harder to tell someone you don't love them, i guess. i mean, if someone says they love you from their heart, and then you say,.... uh, thanks. that'd suck.

What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?:
it'd be so hard for me to give up being on the internet! it's my job, and my life to always be up on here.

Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?:
my lil sister, xle. she got me a playwriting book and it meant so much to me. not only was it a nice gesture, but more importantly, it meant that she believes in me and what i struggle to be - a playwright. i love her so much for having that belief in me.

If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?:
nope. everything's been pretty hunkydory so far!

Imagine it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?:
i can kick ass on my own. plus, if something did happen to me, i wouldn't want them to get hurt.

Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?:
i'll be honest, i'm a germ freak, and if someone was dirty like that, just from my experience of homeless people in sf, i'd ask for help. if no one was there, i'd just have to suck it up and try to save this person's life, but i just wanted to keep it real.

You are holding onto your grandmother's hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?:
jacked up question. next.

Are you old fashioned?:
yes.

When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?:
yesterday, when i went passed my co-workers cubes and wished them a good morning. i don't expect a good morning back. i just wanted to wish them a good morning.

Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?:
luckily, i've been there, done that, and pick true love and end up with a broken heart. at the very least, i know what "true" love is. love is in quotes because i don't think i'd know what true love is until i become a father. but with this romantic love, at least i know what true love is when i know it. and it's the greatest thing in the world!

If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?:
easy. for my friends and their families to be safe and in good health.