Need to write

I feel my self actually feeling ill because I haven't written in a while. It's a thirst that really needs to be tended to. I can't explain it really. The quote, "If you wake up and there's nothing else you can do but write. Then you're a writer." keeps playing over and over in my head. I know that this is from Sister Act II, but it's real. But this feeling is just so strong. Also one of my beliefs is that if I write 100 pieces... only 1 will be something that I like, and hopefully others will like.

I've pretty much conceded that I'm not the best producer or anything cuz I couldn't even get my play done, which is still a very sore subject, that i don't want to confront... whoa! no, i do want to confront it. i need to confront it. i wanted to have my play done, but it didn't happen. so many things felt like it didn't want to happen. just a feeling, but all those obstacles were meant to be, and i was honestly trying to ignore them. but ignoring them just made things worse for me.

but maybe what it made realize was that maybe i'm just supposed to be a writer. actually, that's what i want more than anything. to be a writer.

it's 1:39am and i don't know where i'm going with this, but i do know where i am going... and the only way to get there is to write!