family

i went to my neighboring city of oakland to see my family perform. it was a kinda weird feeling to not be performing. i did a little narration, but it's not the same as being on stage. hmmm... just flashed in my mind the time i was on stage singing "hanggang sa muli" that moment on stage was the greatest in my life, and i swore, i milked that feeling for all it was worth. i cherished those 3 nights for that number.

sorry, back to tonight, i just wanted to flashback. tonight was fun though. i am SO PROUD of everyone who performed... and honestly, so PROUD of everyone who has been associated with this group. i know that i've written this in here before - my philosophy of life is to leave behind a LEGACY. and everyone who has been a part of this group of performers has done this.

most of tonight was actually spent shadowing USA. ...just trying to learn as much as possible about what he needed and how he worked with new people in getting what he wanted. there was a lot of new words that i haven't heard before and i don't remember what they were because it was lighting terminology. i don't know how he does it without going bonkers though. i'd lose my mind. everyone was amazing! funny thing is that, you know when you've been doing something long enough, something just clicks when you just go on automatic pilot and you don't think twice about doing something. it becomes natural. the bad part about "going on automatic" is that sometimes, you forget to cherish the fact that you're doing what God has intended for you to do. i'm doing this a lot lately, and sometimes step back to APPRECIATE the time i'm on stage. it's a pretty deep feeling and something i never want to take lightly.

going down memory road - i remember stretching backstage with bj before playing the percussion for tiboli suite. looking at the amazing artists as we entered the stage the LAST time i step on stage for 'hanggang sa muli'. changing pants in a hallway behind the theater at city college... you know i could keep going, but i'll stop here. just A LOT of GOOD TIMES. the twist with this whole thing, is that these artists have become my FAMILY.

better go. pretty long day.