3 days. 3 cemeteries.

long weekend. 3 days. 3 cemeteries. 1 funeral. many tears fell.

on thursday, i went my lil sister's grandma's viewing. after having that moment of deja vu walking through the front doors, i looked to my right and saw plants behind a window. i don't remember that. xle said the same thing. it was a very surreal experience being back there. i felt guilty for having these feelings though. i shouldn't because i was supposed to be there for my family, and i was, but there were just those feelings again. hard feelings. and then when sis sung "walang hanggang paalam" of course i lost it. i again felt bad because of 2 years ago, and those feelings should've been left at the door, even though it was at the same place. i'm sorry. oh yeah, when fatima sung, an earthquake struck. a mild jolt was all, but it left me with wonder. i heard someone ask, "was that an earthquake?" oh, i also didn't remember the hallway being so long. good food. after the viewing, a bunch of us went to visit bitoy that late night. I was in awe as Auntie Letty talked about her mom's anting-anting. I don't really know much about the subject, but my imagination really went crazy for a new play.

friday. same deja vu feeling again. it was different because now it was at the same church as it was 2 years ago. that time was really all a blur. a bad dream. but as i sat there, i had flashbacks of where everyone was sitting, but again, it didn't feel real. the eulogies were very well done. i took in every word and emotion that were said to commemorate the LIFE of Sinfarosa Piamonte. (xle, please let me know if I misspelled your lola's first name. If i did, I'm really sorry. Most of the time, she was referred to Sister Rose.) But yeah, i took a lot from that experience. Then off to Skyview. Got kinda lost behind the traffic, but found my way there ok. another cemetery. :( she's at a nice location. sad. the reception was nice too. i'm always down for buffet. from someone, who doesn't have a big family, it's nice to see another family have fun with each other.

after the funeral and reception, drove up to sac to see my SIS perform in Smokey Joe's Cafe! funny, all this time, i've been calling it SMOKIN' Joe's Cafe, hehe. i didn't realize it until i saw it up in lights above the drummer. nice little theater on 24th in Sac. Wish i caught the King and I there. anyways, i LOVED the show. hecka cute! it was really nice seeing our NAG doing something different and fun! her LONG THICK WHITE BOA cracked me up! i kept praying that she wouldn't inhale a feather as one got frighteningly close to her mouth as she sang one of her solos. please, please, please, was all i kept saying. i'm just so PROUD of her :) i couldn't stay long since i had to leave early the next morning for home.

saturday, went home to help my mom get things ready for sunday for my dad's 2 year anniversary. took time out later that day to drive around monterey. wound up in PG overlooking a cliff watching the sunset. was a nice night, and something worth doing since days fly by faster and faster with each sunrise. i wrote a poem for a lola. it was inspired by the eulogies for LeRoid's lola. I'm adapting it for a "spoken word" piece for Lisa, a character in my play. It rounds her character out more and also puts more emphasis on what i need - the audience needs to love her as much as R.J. does. so that's what i've been working on too.

sunday. mass and then another cemetery. it was a really nice day in monterey. as i stood over my dad, i looked west to the ocean. peaceful like. looks like they're gonna add more plots next to my dad. i forgot to mention that the day before, when i was in monterey, i went to fisherman's wharf. i parked there and remembered the spot where my dad would take me fishing. right here on the rail when i was in middle and high school. we'd cut squid on the railing and showed me how to cast from that spot. i remember fishing late at night this one time when there were at least 50 people on that people fishing for makerel. didn't even need bait. they just grabbed hook and reel em in. good times. good times.

take care yalls.