Taking Stock of the Market

right now, i'm in the waiting room of the "Monterey Peninsula Surgery Center" waiting for my mom to get out of a small procedure that she needs to get done. all's well though as this is part of a checkup. she asked the doctor if this was okay to do now cuz we're going on holiday on wednesday, and he said yes. so... i'm here.

had so much fun on Saturday with my extended family and band TAAL. i was asked to sit in with them and honestly i didn't want to at first. i came to the sad realiztion on thursday, after rehearsing with the band on wednesday night, that i no longer have the chops or THE EAR to play trumpet anymore. playing for the show was one thing, but to play for with my friends... well, that was more personal. i didn't want to suck because i love all of them so much! the members of this band have stuck with me through the hardest of times and we've celebrated the best of times, and the LAST thing i want to do is regret asking me to play with them. after a "talk" with the APEX of the band on thursday night, my shakey confidence was somewhat bolstered, but was still wavering. that changed after Friday's rehearsal. I felt more comfortable, and was made more at ease with my keyboard in tow to help me figure out my notes.

the gig itself was a blast! i've been thinking A LOT about my personal issues i've been going through alone lately as of which, one of those issues is what makes me happy. and seeing my friends ROCKING the Stockmarket and having FUN was honestly one of the happiest moments i can remember having. music is a wonderful thing... being able to make music that moves (literally) people is an AMAZING thing. i'm just tremendously honored to be a part of it.

my solo at the end sucked but i'm a creature of REHEARSAL which has been engrained im my head since high school, and i don't improvise... which wound up happening. i felt horrible after that and tried not to let it show, and kinda needed to get over it with some alone time. i eventually got over it by the next morning.

until next time... maybe?