i'm THIS close

so i'm sitting in front of my brand new imac with firefox open with 8 tabs exploring the possibility of doing something that will cost A LOT of money. *sigh* this is my version of window shopping. all 7 windows (the 8th is this blog) have something to do with RENT, Costa Mesa, Southwest Airlines, and the Wyndham Orange County Hotel all at a grand total of.... $457.15 FOR ONE DAY! "No day but Today" is ringing in my head. I have the money, but i just can't really justify going. if this was in Seattle maybe, but SoCal. plus by myself. there's a difference between being stupid and using all of this fundage and being with someone else and being stupid together... i need a girlfriend :( it was much easier to pack up and leave when i was with someone else. oh well.

so i got a free day tomorrow and while sitting at my desk at 6:30pm staring out at the bay, with brain audibly sizzling from being burnt out, i definitely need a day to get away. where to? i don't know. i was thinkin of sac... still an option if anyone else wants to check out marisol. we'll see. what i do need to do is write. i was working on the story for the movement at lunch and by the time the hour was up, i've written almost 2 full pages of what was supposed to be a paragraph synopsis. it's nice to feel like a writer again.

speaking of which... i hope that ONE DAY my play will see the light of day. after everything i heard last night about a certain group, i can just hope. then again, if i want to have something done, it's time to roll up the sleeves and get it done! i can't do it by myself though. hmm... maybe i can do a one person show with puppets? i've done it before with my short play, "hustle and florentine." hehe.

better go. not making much sense again.