catching up

Hey. Been a while. Woo-hoo! It's my birthday weekend! I really haven't been stoked about one of my birthdays in a while. I guess it's because I'm excited about some of the things I want to give myself :) Just thinking about what makes other people's birthday's special for me. One, is because it's their birthday and not mine. And 2, because of the gift I'd give them.

In my case, I'm excited to FINALLY hear "A Dance..." being read. In addition to this is the future of the play. I really want to have it, and other plays, produced. To have an audience. I guess this is because of "The Love Edition" @ Bindlestiff. Another thing excited I'm about is launching a new website called, "BakitWhy?". I'm hoping to have a soft-launch it on my birthday, so there's a heap of work to do still, but at least a skeleton will be in place. It's been something I've been thinking about for a couple of years.

There was a special get-together for BJ's 2-year on Sunday. It was a really beautiful experience. A prayer kicked off the evening and words were shared about our memories of him. I was, of course, asked to begin the reflections. It was odd again that me and Bri were asked to start the Karaoke too. Kinda weird really. I'm still regarded as a Sacramentian even though I've lived here for almost 2 years. Back to the celebration - it was one. Of course, tears were shed, but there was also a feeling of finally being able to let go, even though that's still easier said than done. Rissa seemed to have a good time. She rocked out with singing "Borderline"! We also got together and discussed what should become of the BJ Memorial Fund. A lot of great ideas came out of it - a camp/trip to the pi to learn about indeginous instruments to creating something that will give back to the health care of the community, something that beej talked/lived about.

I was also approached by someone with the 'Stiff asking me if I was interested in becoming a Board Member. At first, I was taken aback by this request. Mostly because I'm brand new to everything. I'm in a transition mode to get to know everyone and establish myself in this community. Would anyone even listen to me since I'm from the "outside"? But after talking about it with my bro, he flat out said, "You know you want to do it!" bs, aside, i do. for some reason, people has always wanted me to be a "leader", and i've always been pushing that idea aside. but looking back, i've always been one to make/be part of a change. a positive change for the group. to be responsible and take the first step. maybe that's why when jen and jason asked me to be the first to say something about beej, i said sure. i'm learning to use/hear bj's voice/request/command to STEP UP! not be afraid anymore. to finally have a reason to see the things that other's have seen in me for a number of years.

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.

laterz.