it's monday?

didn't do much yesterday, and work is work, so i don't feel like talking about that right now...

so let's focus on saturday! we had our annual tropa holiday party and i had so much fun! fo realz, whenever i have "expendable" money, i'm buying guitar hero 2! it was way more tiring than i thought it could be. hehe. it'll balance out my ddr exercise! which is still going well :) i couldn't blow a fricken balloon to save my life and i got a fricken aneurism from it! oh, shit. did someone take a picture of me and sang's balloon? oh crap. funny thing was that i was planning on getting smashed cuz of the stress from work, but i made a deal with myself to not drink until a specific thing happens, which won't be for a long time, but it'll be worth it! it was just nice to hang out with everyone - my family. we just ate and just enjoyed being with each other. there was no pressure to drink, like at other parties by young people (does that mean that we're getting old?) nah, just means that enjoyed each other without needing to drink.. but if we want to we will! stockings were exchanged and white elephant was fun and different!

then my RENT brother dropped his news. i'm not afraid to admit it, i shed a tear or two. i had two immediate thoughts after he spoke the words, "i'm leaving." my very first was of my sis. and then my second was that i made the same announcement to these friends at my dad's funeral reception. it's an opportunity for him and all opportunities are meant to be taken not passed up! but i got really sad. i'm gonna be more sad a little later on... oh wait, i'm sad now. i briefly, very, got upset that i didn't know earlier, but that's BULLSHIT! really, it doesn't matter about me! it doesn't change the fact that one of my best friends is moving to the middle of the country. reality check, when peeps leave sac, it's hard to come back, mostly because it costs too much. i'm lucky cuz i did leave the first time and i MISSED OUT on so many things, which i really regret doing, but the point is that even though i left sac the second time, i try to make it up to sac as many times as i can, or rather how many times my car will let me be able to drive there, to not miss out again! but there? i thought san diego is far. i mean, i try to put another spin on it that at least i'll have a new place to visit.

bummed. nyt inkernet...