can't sleep...

What the fuck?! can't sleep... rather, rephrasing, i can't fall back asleep. got back from looking for the perfect white elephant gift for $20 OR LESS! and found it. hope the gift works. getting back to my tale, got back around 9, had a slightly thawed out turkey sandwich (i premade a bunch of turkey sandwiches the other night and i froze to keep fresh for the long haul. something i learned from michelle's mom.), and fell asleep in the living room. woke up at 3am... and still up. jus spending time looking for blogs to read.

honestly, i'm not trying to be stalker-ish, but in my own little sense of reality, i'm trying to make the world smaller by looking at this world through other peoples eyes. it's also because since i've been using google for my tracking purposes, i've always wondered how/why people have come to this blog o' mine, especially from places like, Cubao, Beijing, Budapest, or Courtland, CA?! putting two and two together, i just hit the next blog button on my page... and boom i'm exported to a granny's scrapbook page in wisconsin. click... i'm the dad of a homeless family in jacksonville florida. click... i'm getting an inverted navel piercing in makati for 400 pesos.

in short, blogging is now another form of escapism, which joins the list of movies and books. i never thought of using the internet in this way which seems like such an obvious tool for doing so. last year, i was happy to just use this tool to go online-window shopping.

it's also kinda cool to see how other people "talk." as an "emerging" writer (i like this phrase since i'm seeing it a lot of the trade journals i've been reading), i'm in constant search for my style. and in doing this, i like to see what styles are out there and blogs are a cool way to find out.

better go... i'm starting to bore myself with this entry. :)