and another year passes

so i was going to write like a "year-end" summary about everything i did this year. something i used to do with michelle...

side note: for a while i never referred to michelle. instead, i used ex or her. but hey, it is what it was. i spent a lot of time and a lot of memories with her and i'm going to acknowledge that. i guess that's what came out of my therapy session in writing my play. i used to hope and erase those memories of her, but those are my memories too. for the most part, she made me the person i am today. it's been SO LONG since we've talked and i don't think that's going to change. i don't need to go back down that road again. but one thing i want to stress is that i no longer miss or long to go back to those days. i'm looking on moving forward, but i have to give credit where credit's due - and i thank her for that. so there!

now where was i... "year-end" summary. so, yeah, we used to do that, but i didn't know where to begin, so i went back to looking at my myspace blogs. when i started reading my post of jan. 1, 2006 - it looks a lot of what i want to do for 2007. in short, i didn't achieve any of my short term goals, which i will do this year - promise to me. even though it's a lot easier to promise to others than to myself. just who i am.

but there are a couple of things that i want to remember about the past year that made it memorable:

- i went to the philippines. it was a short stay but i did so much: visited family, got lost many times, snorkling, saw a tinik(ling) bird, had real filipino food like puto boom-boom (sorry sis, i keep forgetting the correct way to say it), went to baguio, and lot of other things.

- stood up to my boss. made me a stronger person.

- joined a new group which hopefully leads to a good new year. hooked up with bindlestiff and the sf asian american film festival. looking for more groups to join and just get out there.

- found that i have more strength than i know i had. i.e. when i sang balikbayan box with sis. when i rehearsed the song for the show, i never listened to bitoy and her sing it, just cuz it hurt too much. i love these two with every inch of my being and i honestly didn't want to hear another voice with hers sing that song. not even mine. but for some reason, it felt right on that night. plus, he visited. so hopefully that was a positive sign. anyways, i found the strength to do that. but honestly, i still don't think i'm able to sing another song without him... not sure if i can still listen to it. but in time i will.

- that i can actually get surprised. i'm too old to be surpised by anthing, but i have some great friends who surpised me for my birthday! went to joes expecting to just have dinner with just a couple of people, which is fine, but found more of my familia there! :)

- discovered the musical stylings of "el charro negro" - i miss mariachi music. i tried to play some of it in high school, and wished we learned. el charro negro is the name of a black mariachi singer that sang at an event that my lil sis sang at. hella people there.

- i still got a little writer in me. it's been like forever since i wrote anything that i liked, but one morning, that old feeling came back. next step - GET IT PRODUCED!

- watched a lot of inspiring concerts/events: lani and sos, dwts, GARY, a karaoke contest ;), AI Live, kelly clarkson!!!, up concert chorus, RENT #21, and since it was so good i'll mention GARY AGAIN!

- i auditioned for a tv show, a show in the pi :) discovered my lack of tagalog skills hurt. didn't realize i was in the same room as irish from pda. crap! maybe next year... tomorrow. hehe.