Lost my center

It feels like I haven't written in here in a while, even though it was only 2 days. I sent something to one of my idols and in my message to her, I thanked her for sharing her gift with us. Somewhere along the way, I lost my gift. I started to take for granted what is given to me, instead of naturally using this gift. Like my admiration for when my sister sings or when my brother acts, what I love about them and their performances is it's genuine. Real. And I've noticed that when I'm writing, or attempting to do so as the case currently is, I've been thinking too much. For the last couple of months, I've just been absorbing Theater! Watching plays, reading scripts, attending workshops, learning from How To... books. And now that this knowledge is in my brain, I forgot how to write. Well, more precisely I'm thinking too much instead of just writing. I lost the faith that I KNOW I get that when I start writing, I get lost in what I write and a story appears - much like Isaac from Heroes when he starts to paint something in his trance and then when he wakes up from this trance, he's amazed by what he's created. I miss that feeling. I know that I don't have like this super genetically created power, but I know that I do have something greater - and that's my faith. I won't go too much into it, cuz this is, and has been, a personal journey for me, but I lost my center. And in this struggle to get back to what makes me, not only a writer, but ME, I just have to Let Go. Part of returning back to my center will be on November 3, 2007 - I need him, his music, and his lyrics to get back to... me.